Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Three

My journal and I have been fighting for quite some time now. I suspect my journal is still miffed at me for... expressing my feelings in an unconventional way. During one of my nastier bad spells, I took a knife to my journal and then dumped, what I thought, was red ink on it. The ink turned out to be pink, which made me even madder.
                                             
I don't think my journal has forgiven me for that. This one seems to be a very classic sort of journal that likes things to be just so. A very neat and tidy journal. Which is a shame because it came to me at a very untidy time in my life. Since our arguements, I've been on the computer more to fufill my ranting needs. Hermes was delighted at first, and has now become something of a snob. Which is fine, he's been through a lot. However, when I hit another bad spell and deleted all my blogs and journal enteries, he so kindly reminded me that I would want them someday and that I was being irrational and moody. I didn't listen and have lost a lot of good stuff. The annecdote about Miss M opening my wallet, taking out a dollar, closing the wallet, and sitting on the dollar when she was all of 9 months old. *sigh*

There are only a few pages left in this journal, thank goodness. Soon I can move on to a different, and hopefully more free spirited journal. I'm not entirely sure how to finish off the last few pages. My journal refuses to speak to me and has been causing my pens to dry up, which is starting to freak me out. A part of me wants revenge for a lot of good pens wasted. A part of me wants to make peace and make the last few enteries neat and tidy. Perhaps, I'll just print off a couple blogs and glue them in. 
At any rate, here's a picture of Miss S who has suddenly discovered TOYS! Oh how we love toys in this house! The nice thing about her new obsession with TOYS! is that (a) she is starting to roll over now. (b) all the stimuli wears her out quickly so she's actually napping now *gasp!* This gives me a little bit more time to myself. Which, as every mom knows, is a joke. 

1 comment:

Magpie Sue said...

That is one adorable baby ;- )

Retire the old journal and begin a new one. If it's not working for you, put it in time out - permanently. You might even want to consider one journal for the bad days and a different one for the good days/stories.