Jan. 10, 2011

Today's Celebration- Taking my brother to his rehearsal. The kids and I played downstairs. There were other children there too, so my children were able to hang with other kids. The parents of other kids were so pleased to have some one else around to keep an eye out for their youngin's. I always forget how much I love being in a theater. Backstage, onstage, doesn't matter. The atmosphere surrounding a play is magic. I often find myself wishing to be able to be more involved with our communities theater programs. Maybe once the children are older.

Today's Resentment- I admit it, I'm panicking. Usually there are so many other things going on in my life, that the finances take a back seat. They always seem to work themselves out. Granted, I still have a lot of other things going on, but suddenly the finances have taken a front seat. We are in a danger zone and I'm out of brilliant ways to fix it. Can't even consider going off to live in a tent (which is really sounding fantastic at this point) because we collected on the first time buyer home credit. If we move or sell within three years, we have to pay it back. Which I can't afford. I keep telling myself things will sort them selves out like always, but I feel like I'm lying. The stress of this coupled with becoming a married single woman is sending me into a depression. I'm fighting like mad to stay afloat. Prayers would be appreciated.

I miss my grandma.